Oblivion

Solemn heart and weary mind
Here I am doubting myself 
What’s right what’s wrong 
What should I say or shouldn’t 
Becoming a version of a person 
I don’t recognize 
Hanging onto a belief for the sake of sanity

A distorted view of reality befalls me
Who am I supposed to be
How does the world even work 
Is the good still out there 
or has evil taken over 
Sucked up in the chaos 
Adrift from myself

For the fright of the wickedness 
In the heart of men.
Crazy times it is 
When nothing seems to make sense 
Who do I even listen to 
Desiring to scream but I can’t 
A thousand thoughts going through
With no direction but all dissonance 

Losing grip on myself 
Trying to grasp reality 
Yet it seems all effort and 
dedication goes to waste
Shall I cave in as well 
Or am I already in and unaware 
What’s even happening here
Stuck am I In this state of oblivion